I decided not to have my ojt next term so i can focus on my last term as an editor. So far, this is the best decision i made in my life. Eto yung decision na hindi ko kailanman pagsisisihan though nakakahinayang yung companies na tumatawag.

Sana okay ang lahat.

Sana rin maisip ng thesisfriends kong sumabay ng ojt :) hehehe... though im not forcing them and influencing them.

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no matter how much i love you, it would not bring you back to me. I will be a shadow in the dark, loving you forever in the past - the banquet.

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i am loving the "monotonous life." less problem and less pressure. though im still looking for an adventure. oh man, life is so calm and peaceful but im thinking so much.

oh i need some love here. :D

Dapat nag-aaral ako ngayon, pero eto ako nagbablog. Break muna.

Basta lang, nalulungkot pa rin ako sa pag-iisa. Ayoko ng moments na walang ginagawa.

Im missin so much people. And whenever i think about them, i cant help but cry. i mean, they are not so far. they are just few kilometers from me, and some are even in my reach. But i miss them. There is this feeling that whenever i see them, i want to hug them. And thank them for coming into my life. Im being senti again.

Sabi nila, masasabi mo raw na handa ka ng magmahal kapag marami ka ng nilalaang oras para sa iyong sarili, at alam mo na ang mga gusto mo sa buhay. Sa unang pagkakataon, masasabi ko na sa kabila ng pagkakakilala ko sa kung sino ako, alam ko na kulang pa rin ako.

Matanda na ako, at oo, kailangan ko ng magmahal. Mahal ko ang sarili ko, ang pamilya ko, at ang mga kaibigan ko, pati mga hayop sa amin. Pero kulang. Girlfriend, syota, kagustuhan, iniirog, kahit anong tawag ang gusto mo. Dahil nga kilala ko na ang sarili ko, alam ko na ito na lang marahil ang isa sa mga kulang. Siguro. Marahil. Baka.

Naisip ko lang na napakarami kong sobrang oras sa buong maghapon. Nagagawa ko ata lahat, mula sa pag-aaral, trabaho, at may oras pa akong maggym, magmall, manood ng sine, at manood ng isang mahabang pelikula gabi gabi. Masaya nga, pero nakakasawa pa rin.

Araw-araw, dalangin ko na matagpuan ko na ang babaeng mamahalin ko at mamahalin ako. Lumilipas ang bawat araw na nilulunod ko lang ang sarili ko sa pagmamahal para sa sarili ko at sa taong walang kasiguruhang mamahalin din ako. Ni hindi nga niya alam na mahal ko siya at iniisip ko siya. O baka naman hindi pala talaga siya. Pero sino? Isang istrangherong nagsusulat din ng ganito sa gabing hindi siya makatulog at nag-iisip.

Bakit kung kailan handa ka na para sa isang bagay, hindi naman binibigay sa iyo ang bagay na yun? Naniniwala akong lahat ng bagay at pangyayari ay may dahilan. Pero hanggang kailan ako maghihintay. Okay, falling in love, you fall. Pero nahulog na ako ng makailang beses at hindi man lang ako napansin, o hindi lang talaga ako pinansin.

Baka ko naisusulat ang ganito kasi wala akong iniisip. Nakakalungkot. Im so monotonous!

Nakakatawa sa umaga pagnagbibihis ako, napakarami ko ng oras na nilalaan sa harapan ng salamin at aparador ko iniisip kung ano ang isusuot. Baka sakaling kung magpapakatino ako ng pananamit, may makakapansin sa akin. O mapapansin ako ng taong hinihingan ko ng pansin.

I know right! Im sounding desperate here! Im stupid you know. But who cares! i want to write and i need someone to love! Umaapaw na ang pag-ibig ko pero the sad part here is that wala naman akong mapag-alayan nito. Damn shit! Im such a bitter schmuck!

For you, the one i havent known or havent seen, or have known already or have seen already, pucha, im here! Waiting for you. Let me be your prince and let you be my princess. Yuck Mr. Delfin Manuel Acuna III, you are losing your senses.

And above all this. Im happy and completely incomplete.

Im feeling bad.

Im sick. And im stressed. I want to sleep but i cannot, but i will and i need to. Labo.

Listening to this song. And i love it.

I don’t like to be alone in the night
And I don’t like to hear I’m wrong when I’m right
And I don’t like to have the rain on my shoe
But I do love you, but I do love you
I don’t like to see the sky painted gray
And I don’t like when nothing’s going my way
And I don’t like to be the one with the blues
But I do love you, but I do love you
Love everything about the way you’re loving me
The way you lay your head
Upon my shoulder when you sleep
And I love to kiss you in the rain
I love everything you do, oh I do
I don’t like to turn the radio on
Just to find I missed my favorite song
And I don’t like to be the last with the news
But I do love you, but I do love you
Love everything about the way you’re loving me
The way you lay your head
Upon my shoulder when you sleep
And I love to kiss you in the rain
I love everything you do, oh I do
And I don’t like to be alone in the night
And I don’t like to hear I’m wrong when I’m right
And I don’t like to have the rain on my shoes
But I do love you but I do love you
But I do love you but I do love you

Life gets better and better...

Masaya lang ang buhay... i should enjoy this period wherein wala pang pressure masyado...so if pressure comes, e di andian lang ung pressure, hahahaha...

Looking forward sa mga darating pa.

Negative energies... wala kayong puwang sa buhay ko :D

Quiapo day tomorrow with bestfriend yoa!

To a very good friend, i know you are experiencing excessive stress... just want you to know im always here for you. We can talk all night long, like what we did a while ago... i will listen to you promise... hug

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Wala lang... some people knows only one thing... excessive flirting...

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People loves "basketball" especially the rebounding part...

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I won a slice of cake... i love eating banana... i like listening to upbeat music... and i love myself.

Im bored. I wanna watch DVD but i dont have anything to watch. Hmm.. maybe i can go to quiapo on wednesday and go dvd shopping!

Ill watch saw ii. Ang tagal na nito pero hindi ko pa rin napapanood kasi kadiri. Pero okay, ill dare myself.

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Pakisabi na lang...

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Hay life...

Natutuwa akong magsulat ng mga random thought sa blog ko

I get this thoughts usually sa nangyayari sa araw ko at sa mga taong nakakasalamuha ko araw-araw. Hay...

* Committment - some people just cannot do it, hence, this "some people" are immature.
* Committment - i think, i am more than willing to do it, but still i cannot do it, therefore i am immature?
* I assume so much, thus, I usually get hurt.
* I am hurting inside, i guess.
* Interview tomorrow
* Workout
* Random
* Missing someone
* Poor dial up connection
* I feel cold, but i am loving it
* I need to shop
* Shopping - uh, did i say shopping?
* I feel and look good today, i guess
* Tomorrow is a busy day.
* i have so many random thoughts. and i cannot put everything here.
* i wanna play badminton again.

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Another random song...chasing cars

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
To show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
To show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, They're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Random Thoughts

*Hay thesis... hay thesis... at isa pang hay thesis...
*Bakit ako hindi pwede? Bakit kayo pwede?
*Salamat Turo!
*Bakit nga ba ito?!
*Gusto ko sumigaw
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Gusto ko papaniwalain ang sarili kong hindi ako napapagod at hindi pa ako pagod.

Pero hindi, pagod talaga ako.

Gusto ko papaniwalain ang sarili kong madali lang ang lahat, pero hindi. Niloloko ko lang minsan sarili ko.

Gusto ko sumigaw kaso nakakahiya naman sa kapitdorm ko. Dito na lang ako sisigaw... pasensya na.

PUTANG-INA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Putang ina talaga!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As in putang ina..................................... kung may makikita man akong tao ngayon, tang ina susuntukin ko!

Putang ina... nangigigil ako!!!! Putang ina!!!!!

12:37am

Dumdumdum...

Himala ito. Inaantok na ako!

Simula na ito ng masaganang pagtulog para sa akin at malusog na pangangatawan.

I think im back to normal. At last. This is the completion! Eto na!

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Conversation a while ago:

Kuya D.A are u in love?!

Hindi

Gusto mo mainlove?!

Hindi ko alam. Bakit?!

I think, dapat ng i let go ang obsession sa topic na love. Hindi ba pwedeng politics? Friendship? Hopes and Dreams? Stock Exchange? Dollar exchange?

Im sick and tired. Everytime it is the topic, oh man, i feel like im such a loser. yung iba, parang ang simple lang, love and pagwala na, wala na! Thats it.

Sige fine, there is such thing we call love.

But for now, hindi ko muna yan alam.

Hahayaan ko muna ang sarili kong bigyan ng bagong kahulugan ang love. Kunyari, hindi ko to alam, hindi ko pa naranasan. Ill wait for the day when someone will teach me and show me the real meaning and essence of the thing they call love.

Ill wait for the day na masasabi ko na, "Natuto akong magmahal nung nakilala kita."

Enough of the drama. Let's talk about lego or how they puzzle pieces are cut into pieces. Lets ponder on life's other mysteries. Come on bring it on!

Gah!